I haven’t posted in a blog in a while. I can tell you that
life has been really busy, and I would be telling the truth, but that is no
excuse. There is no excuse to abandoning my craft because I’m wasting God’s
gift. Since April, a lot in life has changed.
I’m currently living in a different town, pursuing a
graduate degree, I am not working at the moment, and I’m learning to live on a
tight budget. It’s different. It’s hard. And the part that scares me the most
is that I have no safety net. I have nothing that I have created with my own
hands to rely on.
All I have is Jesus, and the people he has surrounded me
with. That sounds as if it should be enough, and it should, but if you know me,
you know I’m the type of person that usually doesn’t take risks. I’ve written a
few blogs about risk taking, because I’m usually speaking to myself. There are
a lot of unknown factors in my life right now, and that make me nervous. I’m
independent, headstrong, and usually in control of my life, or at least I think
I am. That is the problem. I know God is asking for his throne in my life,
which belongs to him anyway.
It makes me glad. God is teaching me right now. And quoting
Beautiful Eulogy, “whom shall I fear when my anchor is secure. [I’m] learning
to consider it pure joy when I face tribulations.” Whatever type of net I think
I have, if the net is not secured by Christ, I have nothing. Until I can stand
before him and honestly say that “Yes, everything else is worthless when
compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake
I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could
gain Christ,” He will ever continue to ask for all of me. Amen.
